selflove – 360 of my 180

When you start a journey to become healthier, somewhere along the way you’ll discover the importance of balance. And when you do, if you’re like me, you’ll probably fight it at first.

For those of us who have a perfectionist personality also usually comes the all or nothing attitude.

The more you learn about yourself the more levers you have to play with. Learning various ways to become healthier, physically, mentally and emotionally. It can and probably will be daunting.

You’ll go in full force, pulling down one lever to progress as much as possible, as fast as possible. This will inevitably bring another lever all the way up and cause imbalance.

No matter how coaches and teachers repeat it, us perfectionists stubborn people have to pull on a lever all the way down and get out of balance in order to learn. What matters is what we do with this new information and how we get back up and adjust the lever.

In my blog “Laser Focus” I slowly started to understand the concept of balancing thoughts and emotions. Since then, I read a book by Dr Joe Dispenza called “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One”.

It’s an incredible book that made me realize quite a few things about why we react and act in certain ways and how to find balance.

With time, we learn to pull and adjust each lever slowly, one at a time. It requires a lot of trying, failing, patience, discipline and most of all, self love.

This image shared by Dr. Nicole LePera is the best I’ve seen to represent the various levers to play with and find balance.

A few days ago I wrote The Perfect Imperfection.

I wrote a blog a day since. This is out of character for me for multiple reasons.

I usually want to review over and over. Change… rearrange continuously… Have someone review and approve. Then review it myself again and again. This can take days or even weeks. And then after weeks, doubt and fear of judgement sets in and I end up not publishing it at all.

After I wrote The Perfect Imperfection, I unconsciously started working on something that came up during one of my classes with my incredible teacher, Christina De Freitas. Deconstruction. Deconstructing some of my thoughts, emotions or some of my traits.

Last few blogs I wrote, I wrote quickly with minimal review and didn’t look for outside approval before publishing. Slowly deconstructing my quest for perfection and my fear of judgement.

42 – The answer to everything – I wrote this on my 42th birthday. As simple as what I wrote is, I wouldn’t have published this a few weeks ago out of fear.
No place I’d rather be – This one deconstructed both perfectionism and the fear of judgement. I would normally have taken days to film the perfect scenes and then days or weeks to cut and move pieces. I decided to let go… just go out and start filming. My nephew and I edited it in under an hour. What was important wasn’t really how the video looked, it was the intent and the message behind it. Before publishing the video, I was afraid of what people would think of the message or the result. But I overcame that irrational fear and just did it.
Laser Focus – Here I talk about something I don’t understand well. I feared I would be all wrong in how I understand or explain it. Then, I just didn’t care if it’s right or wrong. It just felt right at the time and I went ahead.

Letting go, not overthinking and deconstructing some of our deep rooted thoughts and emotions is quite liberating.

Tag: selflove

Levers

Deconstruction

42 – The answer to everything